To wake up and realize that you’re in a state of depression. For many years I was considered to be a happy person. So naturally this is quite a turn of events.
And before the 5 people who care about me frantically message me, this isn’t a suicide call here. I far too stubborn, selfless, and goal driven to do something so stupid.
It all of course comes from that feeling of loneliness, and it’s all bullshit if you ask me. But for the first time in a loooong time I felt lonely in a crowd of people. I currently don’t feel like doing anything or being around anyone. I’m feeling creative if anything.
And I think I’ve discovered the reason I’m single, the reason this loneliness has been slowly tightening its grip. I really will never put a single person over acting. I won’t. Someone can mean the world to me, and may mean as much to me as acting, but if I was ever given an ultimatum, I’d still pick acting.
Gonna do some writing, practice some yoyo tricks.